It is time for me to change. Just as NASA shows these "Galaxies Merging."

It is time for me to push my computer techno skills through the roof. I need to be able to use the computer to make money. Lots and lots of money to attain my goals and dreams and go far beyond them to leave a legacy.

I am about to face the unemployment line since my district has not renewed my contract. I am getting tired of barely making ends meet with a a good teacher income. My only fear is losing my medical benefits and the measley amount that I have in retirement that would support me for less than 6 months. I have car notes to pay of and old student loans that become will be off deferment in Sept. along with a house payment that will double at that same time.

Sorry Adsense but I'm not making enough money from your ads becaause I do not have a big audience of readers yet. However I will work at this really hard this summer. I will lay out my business plan in detail and find Angel Investors. If other ordinary people, can make it big so can I. There is no better time than when 'necessity becomes the mother of invention.' I am starting to picture living by the beach and keeping my home in the desert. I am starting to see multiple enterprises. I know visualization is one of the keys to success. So is a adrendylin. I am starting to require less sleep some nights to accomplish what my spirit requires without putting myself in a manic state of mind. I just know this: I can no longer afford to be afraid to be an entrepreneur.

I no longer want to hear people say "You can't do this or that." I no longer want to have a superintendent look at me as if I just don't cut the State and Federal requirements to be what the government says is a "Highly Qualified" teacher. Frankly, I am just getting too old for this testing sh--. I looked on the computer for teaching jobs throughout the State of California. Ninety-nine percent of what I saw open were for Special Ed Teachers. Students in public schools are becoming more "special" with every passing year and that is a scary statement. I draw a line between "at-risk"and "Special Ed." The line is getting blurred to accomodate everyone (parents, teachers administrtors and up). Students have been served an injustice to be declared "Special." All students can learn if they work hard enough. Being "special" is a cop out. I have searched for the magic method and miss the mark more than I care to. Don't get me wrong; I hit the target more times than not. I make my students work to learn. It's just that my standard is to not let one student slip and become that "child let behind." Some students just flat refuse to work because they do not see the need to get an education. I do not like being held responsible for that smaller number when they are the ones in the most need. The harsh reality is that the "No Child Left Behind" standard is impossible to reach. (It's like fighting terroists.) I will miss the mark a lot more if all that is left are special education students. I have been told that I have patience, but honestly, I have my limitations too. Life is just too short to be trying to do the impossible. Life is too short to work hard without reward.

Yet if half of my impossible wants are granted, I know a Higher power will have to have intervened. I want to become the richest lady in my town without the majority of the town knowing it. I want to be that annonymous philanthropist. I want to be that faceless property developer and owner. I want to be the one who provides jobs and services to thousands of people. I want to make people happy and well off. Will economic/tax laws prohibit me or help me? We'll see. As far as I know the rich help turn the economy upward (except maybe oil companies). What happened to the Sherman Anti Trust Act? I want to take my own action now.

Thankfully i am an accomplished person. God grant me at least 20 to 30 more years to accomplish more than I already have.

My wish list:
To have several Internet sites
To write a couple books
To have a chain of dance studios
To have a mini mall with businesses people need to have in walking distance
To have assisted yet independent living apartments for the elderly and disabled
To have a recreation/fitness center and an ice skating rink
To have a race/show car (or two)
To have a bed and breakfast hotel
To rejuvenate the shanty part of Towns
To offer scholarships to the deserving
To have a performing arts Theatre
To have a film/production company
To have a clothing line

So I have said all of this to put it out there in the Universe. I want and expect this to be the year that I dramatically change my life and the lives of others. It time for me to have a "Cat's eye."

I have paraphased a prayer of Saint Mother Theresa's in the first person:

May today there be peace within.
May I trust God that I am exactly where I
am meant to be.

May I not forget the infinite possibilities that

are born of faith.

May I use those gifts that I have received,
and pass on the love that has been given to me.

May I be content knowing that I am a child of
God.

Let this presence settle into my bones

and allow my soul the freedom to sing, dance,

praise and love.

It is there for each and every one of us.

And as far as a husband in my life, I just don't see any room for him unless he is on board with my entrepreneurship. I cannot wait around for a man just as I cannot wait around for a job. But I also know that cannot do this on my own and in my own power. So I am praying that God put in me on the directed path, and in my path I pray I find the right people for this mission. Grant me the ablity to see them and approach them about my dreams which may be theirs too. (Toastmasters, here eye come>)